Mindful Tides

If Not Now, When?


She dismounts a bike. She unplugs her music from right to left. She swallows her gum. She avoids a puddle. She walks with purpose. She walks with a mask and a frowning angel that sits on her shoulder. She picks up some trash. She looks for a sign. She treads water in an infinite pool of mindlessness. She sees clearly but still wonders what she’s missing. She feels right, and she feels wrong. She’s dark like tinted glass but is as conspicuous as the sun. She locks up her bike. She drops a bottle of water. She doesn’t really mind who notices. She sits in tall grass. She’s empty and she’s full.
She waits to see which direction the wind will blow.

“The purpose of poetry is to remind us
how difficult it is to remain just one person,
for our house is open, there are no keys in the doors,
and invisible guests come in and out at will.”

—   Czesław Miłosz (via observando)

(via howitzerliterarysociety)

Fortune Cookie

Even pain is pretty- fire kills to stay alive, the moon couldn’t orbit without a sun, and lack creates compassion which cracks our locks open as if we were only eggshells containing runny, over-easy truth balancing delicately on a fencepost…

But the wood won’t scream at the flame, and moonlight rests for the beaming sun every night, it has never failed. We carry each other because we know we’re soft. Once our shells are gone, we’re free. It’s only right to fight for who we are.

We’re heading that way anyway, so fuck it.


Find my love
forgotten under the car seat
With candy shells and bar receipts
With your pocket lint and dinner mints
From jeans lost in dresser drawers
Find my love behind closed doors
Where every piece of you that’s gone
Has drawn your hands to their knobs.
Find my love tucked away
For years stuck in scrapbooks
With luck
You’ll find my love again one day

When I dove for the sea
To pull you to shore
I saw the bricks in the mud
The chains round your ankles
The key in your mouth
And the look of your eyes
As though I was the one
That left you to die.


This is the first sleep night’s wind can
Visit skin like a drug-store wanderer
Shoplifting solace from housewares
And taking leave with no receipts

This is the first breathe of humid morning
Dusty box-fan breezes find us
In quilt-shields protecting purpose
But spring just paints promise

The last miracle that graced me
Were rustling sheets and shifting feet
That thought, a prayer, or a chance
Brought you here to the right side of my bed


You are my sunshine
My favorite song line
You’re made of stardust
In skies away

You walk with moons, dear
But you’re the cosmos
You’re the halo
On my cloudy days


Your hands on my back
Sing like cotton seeds
In mid-day sunlight
When birds find bread
Or rains feed weeds
Where my guard rests
For light to creep
From cracks of doors
The keys are yours
And you fit so well
Like knowing to fly
As soon as I dream


I’ve never been closer
To where I’ve always been
But with a fresh coat of paint
On a bed of timid eyes
Topped with smiles
I can’t control

Lucidity is useful
Unless instinct
Is more potent
Than what makes sense.


My footsteps dance
And time disappears
High and pulling forward
Throughout the night
I slept in your mind